Stacey. 27. Trying to forge a life beyond the confines of anorexia. Fragments of hope, smiles and loveliness.
1. Your body is in flux for the rest of your life. Think of your body as fluid instead of static — it’s always going to change. So get comfortable...
— Marya Hornbacher (via balancingstatesofmind)
Anonymous said: It's international friendship day. You are my friend. I love you. When I see you, I'll buy you a cup of tea. Okay? Cheers. Thanks. Love you xxx
Yes, thank you please! You buy me a cuppa and I’ll buy the noms, deal? :) xxx
Anonymous said: how do you deal with weight gain ?
Ha, unfortunately I have no choice but to deal with it! ;) I know that I can’t reach recovery without gaining weight - it’s a necessary evil, unfortunately, but I always think that I’d rather be fat and happy than thin and as desperately unhappy as I was when I was at my worst. I also try to focus on the positives of it: the fact that it’s not just weight that I’m gaining, it’s health and life and opportunities and freedom too.
Anonymous said: how do you cope being in inpatient when new people come in who are really thin and ill ?????????????
I’d be lying if I said it didn’t bother me a bit at first and make me feel insecure about my own body, but I then I remind myself of how much I don’t ever want to be back there feeling that ill and miserable and hopeless and lost. And I’d also hate to be right at the start of treatment again. Plus, I can see objectively that anorexia really does not look good. I usually end up trying to turn my comparisons into a positive thing by using them to see how far I’ve come.
Anonymous said: weekend update???
I very much appreciate your interest, but I’m afraid I don’t have much to report! I had leave Friday night until Saturday lunchtime and I just went home, tidied and cleaned my flat a bit, watched a bit of telly, then went to bed. Then on Saturday I got up and had brekkie, then meandered into town. Nearly jumped out of my skin when my friend cycled up behind me and shouted my name, ha, but it was a really nice surprise to see her! I mooched around the shops for a bit, then went back to the unit. It was all very dull, I’m afraid!xx
Relapse v recovery.
There are ultimately two options.
Option 1: you go through the horrible process of gaining weight, you relapse and loose the weight, you are forced again to gain the weight, you loose the weight and relapse. You are in and out of hospital, admission after admission after…
Anonymous said: favorite cereal ?
Bran flakes! Love ‘em!