Stacey. 27. Trying to forge a life beyond the confines of anorexia. Fragments of hope, smiles and loveliness.
I know you’re all jealous
(but first dinner ie bowl of broccoli :)
1st easter without bingeing on chocolate eggs triple the size of my head (hurrah)
From ‘Lost Cat’ by Caroline Paul. Awesome book! :)
It has felt like an incredibly LONG Easter weekend because it’s been so quiet. But it’s not been too bad really. The lovely recoveringrebecca came to visit, and it was very nice to see her! And I’ve had some really helpful chats with my named nurse. She brought up the fact that I always cut my fruit up into tiny little pieces and told me bluntly how annoying it is for people to watch, ha! It was nice that she was so honest and matter-of-fact about it. We agreed that next time I have an apple I’m only allowed to cut it up into four pieces, and she wrote me a ‘contract’ and got me to sign it, which made me smile. So yesterday when we had fruit for dessert I took the contract down into the dining room with me to remind me and I stuck to it and actually only cut my apple into four pieces! I found it stupidly difficult - way more difficult than I anticipated finding it - and I felt so bad afterwards, but it was nice when my named nurse found out that I’d managed it and was pleased about it. Getting that positive response made the guilt a bit easier to deal with.
Today I had an hour’s leave and my parents came down and we went to Asda Living (wildly exciting, I know!). It was nice to get out and about a bit and I bought three books (see above) and some cute cat and mouse PJs. :) My parents are staying overnight in a hotel tonight because we have family therapy tomorrow. Argh, I’m dreading that SO much. We’ve never done anything like it before so it’s going to be interesting to say the least!
Anywho, I’ll shut up now! I hope all of my lovely followers have had a lush Easter and I send lots of love to you all!
Spring has very definitely sprung! :)